Cowboys & Angels

Sometimes it’s hard not to react after an event. As for instance, the fact that the person just in front of you is not the one you supposed it was. It’s even harder when you realize that you were wrong right from the beginning. Ah, life is such a tortuous mistress. You have to wait until the last moment to see it, even if deep down inside you’ve figured that out a long time ago. Or at least you saw it coming right away. Point is: I was wrong about my “supposedly girlfriend” I was with. Yup, I thought she was meant to be with me, or me with her, but anyway, it doesn’t care much now. I don’t even want to know more about her life. It was just an error, something you will referred as to a mistake, a big one. That’s probably why I haven’t been with someone for such a long time, just to avoid this kind of feelings. But, as I’ve said, it’s not a problem anymore, because I don’t care much about it. It was a mistake to believe everything I did, though I have learnt 2 or 3 things from these beliefs, and it brings somehow some reliefs. Because if it hadn’t, well, I guess that it was both a mistake AND a waste of time, which I don’t want to be much involved in, actually.

Apart from that, this week in Rouen was pretty interesting, especially because of the error I did. Oh yeah, that was the hell of a big one, lol, I can’t stop thinking about it. It makes me laugh because it’s so … you know, obvious that it was going to go straight to a wall, an invisible though rough wall. But, never mind. I’m just hoping tom’ won’t be a hard day, and that she’ll leave anytime soon, so I can get my good ole life back. That’s even funny to see that I’m actually WRITING it, because a couple of days ago I wouldn’t have said that. Yeah, life sux sometimes, I just hope that next time I won’t do the same mistake. I made a promise, broke it, and I’ve paid it.

Maybe next time it won’t be that bad.

Who knows ?

Who cares ?

…

PS : I could say a lot of things more, like, I dunno, the fact that I’ve been enlisted to give some tracts about 6 students that have to pay 5000€ because they were present in a walkout. Or that I’ve run through Rouen’s downtown for nothing. This kind of things.

PS(2) : Fat, you were right from the beginning.

PS(3) : So now Miss Lis, you can read me.