Twilight

I think tonight is a good night to look back on what happened. Listening to the shibuya-kei music is probably helping.

My hair is getting thinner, falling everyday little by little, day by day. I first freaked out about it. I mean, who wouldn’t after all: it’s a part of us that is going away. My problem is my hair is not growing back. It probably won’t. I think it is because of what I did. My big demon is with me all the time. I believe everything happen because of something, I don’t think anything random is of random nature. My hair is gone because of what I did, because of who I am, after all. It’s ok.

I like this state of mind, to be in peace with everything. Maybe it’s because of the music. Who knows?

Anyway, I have to pull something out of it, I have to understand the lesson about all that happened. I need to take things with a little distance, but I’m not in the mood for something too big, I have no plan in my head. I like to continue living every day by spending it under the liquid gold sun pours on us. Although the sun was hiding these last 5 months. I’m over with everything that had happened since January. This is now past, it doesn’t hurt anymore. How can it be when everything is now gone. I’ve decided it, while sitting during the twilight on my paragliding runway. Of course, the twilight there was more beautiful when I was young, for there is a hospital now in direct view from where you stand.
I like my paragliding runway. I’ve been there so many times. It is the place I used to go when I wanted some peace. Peace from this entire offensive world we live in.

Yes, I’m in peace and taking everything slow now. I don’t need to hurry for there is no rush for anything. Why should I? It’s now spring, and it’s going to be summer, with its long and I hope sunny days. No more dark, nor rain, or grey dullness anymore. I don’t say everything’s fine, but things have been worse, and I hope they’ll shine soon.

“The time is now to ride the wind of change”, sings Mozez

Today I finally buried the hatchet with Spanish. It took me quite a long time. Viva the rebirth of everything.