Embrace the martians

by Kid Cudi.

If I remember well, I played this song all april long in my MP3 player.

Of course, at that time it worked just fine… contrary to now, as its jack is as stable as Charles Manson.

Spent a very short week-end with Liv. Man that was fast but damn good, and no, I’m not referring to naughty stuff. Right ?

I’m becoming soft.

That’s probably for the best.

or not, we’ll see.

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April

AKA the aftermath.

Man, March was as tough as it is a fucking blurry space in my head.

Or a blank.

Can’t decide.

April’s pretty much like it, gotta admit.

I just know that’s when I really met Liv.

12th.

We were to be together a month and a half later.

So I started to feel good again.

Even before Liv.

I saw people who were kind of interesting.

Other muses.

Still was pretty intense despite the fact N. wasn’t around anymore.

Another kind of intense.

- Is it me, or every time you see somebody kissing somebody else on TV, you feel the lips of your gf on yours? I mean, you imagine them, since she isn’t around. -

Totally forgot to mention that Kanye West was with me all through the year.

Late Registration / Graduation (my favorite) / 808’s and Heartbreak

listening to “Welcome to Heartbreak”.

Seems like everything has more sense when you’re not in a couple. Looking at the title makes me wonder of what I felt when I listened to it before Liv was around, you know. And the only thing I can think of is the fact that it meant something it doesn’t mean anymore since my feelings for her erases the bad memories of the past.

maybe that’s for the best.

who knows ?

not me.

*Come back after an hour or so*

So apart from O. and I trying to find each other…

From the aforementioned night. Note the Pentax ME Super on the left side.

So apart from that night, I kinda remember the awesome/awful week we had with Arnaud…. well, a week after.

…friggin amazing, when I look back at it.

Cigars; Black Label … Wong Kar Wai & Woody Allen movies…

Plus the last night at the D3… that was terrible.

I mean, it wasn’t a real “medicine party” like the one I’ve been to back in da days with Patou.

During this week, I talked back to N.

2A.M.

facebook.

yeah, the scenario sucks.

But there was a big storm at my door.

At her’s too.

she was online, she talked to me…

“When you’re no longer attached to someone, it’s so damn easy to trick them.”

Please don’t mind the possible inaccuracy.

So I tricked her.

1st step of my “evil plan.”

she disconnected at 3.30 or so.

Had nothing to say back.

Japanese idiot.

whatev’, the following would be much more interesting.

Planning stuff to crush her soul.

I knew it’d bind me to her until it was done.

T’was worth it though.

More about that next month.

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I feared this summer. My freshly started relationship I have with Livvy seems to do good though. More than I could have hoped at first… but she’s fighting, and so do I.

This week we took the time to take the time.

It was worth it, too.

Now that I’m done with april, I feel this year is now behind me.

Of course, the best for me was yet to come.

La preuve

Anyhow, I’m out.

Gotta wake up at 8.30 or so to see Yann @ 10ish.

Gee, this week will be busy as the previous one… but I’ll make room for O.

I hope she won’t destroy her friendships to be with me though.

Might seem to be very egocentric said like that … and yet I’m afraid she’ll put her friendships on hold.

I sincerely hope she will not.

wow.

lotsa hope in these sentences.

focus.

Les vacances again with her this week-end.

feels good man.

feels good.

laters.