I can feel september coming

That reminds me that summer is always a very numbing period.

Hello again melancholy.

Yeah, it keeps on coming back; this time for the best, I guess.

I wanted it to come back around late-july/early august … but since I somehow recovered from my illness (…still don’t know what it was exactly.), I guess that appeased my feelings.

Anyhow, it’s back.

Late summer.

I guess Laurianne triggered this by showing me her drawings she made for an entrance exam in some école St Luc or something.

Triggered the artist part of my mind or something.

Triggered oh so many things …

but I guess that’s only the fact that September is coming to town, along with autumn.

This year is different though cuz my girl is around… first time I have a real relation with a girl… and first time I feel that it’s easy … gotta … adjust myself with that. Knowing only complicated relationships hardened my manners… and even though having a shield is good with people that will deceive you (in the end), it’s no good with people that … are different than the first kind.

Lots of guessing lately.

I know I have to feel at ease in my relationship and about the choices she makes.

Not to judge too quickly.

I know that the mean part only comes from my past relationships…

with muses.

Since she isn’t really one – actually she was one cold, gray day last week; sipping tea while I was writing. Oh boy she inspired me…

so, since she isn’t really one, I don’t have a similar attitude with her than with the other…

apparently for the best.

Who knows ?

That’s also because … she’s doing her part in this.

I think I have the spleen cuz it’s about this time of year last year that I’d known that it would be different from all I’d seen before. And boy that was true.

This year is calmer, easier … at least it looks like it — even though at the end of the year … yeah… don’t really want to write about it tonight.

Gotta go anyway, it’s already 12:24.

G’night people.

Thoughts

Random.

Last september.

other times.

Strangers coming.

Myself going.

possibilities lying.

… and the need to put meaning in my life again.

Photoblog

Here’s the real deal.

I don’t think I’ll post any “rolls” here anymore …

unless it’s relevant to some things I’ve lived … who knows.

Anyway, see you there

and stay tuned here, of course.

Worst Day

My first mistake was letting you into my life (Yes it was)
My second mistake was allowing you into my bed (Laying in my bed)
My third mistake was loving you more than I should
Oh, I really should know better
My fourth mistake was sitting with you,
While you’re telling me that you can’t do this anymore

This must be the worst day of my life (x2)
And it’s true ‘cos all I wanna do is be by your side (My life)
This must be the worst day of my life (x2)
And it’s true ‘cos all I wanna do is be by your side (My life)

I’m walking home and listening to MP3s
Just how did I let you decide to destroy me?
I’m missing you, it crossed my mind that our heart will bleed
The love that I have left behind is gonna finish me
It’s one of those days

This must be the worst day of my life (x2)
And it’s true ‘cos all I wanna do is be by your side (My life)
This must be the worst day of my life (x2)
And it’s true ‘cos all I wanna do is be by your side (My life)

See yesterday I called her back
The day before I called her flat
It ain’t working, break my neck
Still it ain’t cut me my cheque
A week ago I did my thang
Three o’ clock, I missed my train
Tomorrow I thought we could chill
There won’t be, yes, you won’t, I will
The moral of the story like I told my cousin Corey
You see Cupid he will stab you in the back like Jason Voorhees
So he’s got smoking cigarettes and got me drinkin’ 40s
And the doctor said take two, and he said call me in the morning
It’s the worst day

This must be the worst day of my life (x2)
And it’s true ‘cos all I wanna do is be by your side (My life)
This must be the worst day of my life (x2)
And it’s true ‘cos all I wanna do is be by your side (My life)

This must be the worst day of my life (x2)
My life

— Calvin Harris

Forget the rap part and remember the first 2 verses. Cuz that’s exactly last year and it really blow my mind when I listened to it while running back to my flat. Seriously, it’s exactly what happened… except the tomorrow phone call, ok … and the rap part.

Photo update

I’m still around players. Felt like a lil’ update would be cool.

Just some pics of yesterday, with friends … and Liv.

my favorite shot.

More pictures coming soon. And notes, cuz I’ve been rather busy trying to relax.

And also busy with Liv.

But that’s another story

Irony

You know what they say : “It’s always happening when you least expect it.”

True.

…But that works on both side, even though most people think it only happens when you’re happy.

Sometimes it’s the opposite.

Man I made a good choice to do … everything I’ve done.

Like you wouldn’t believe.

hahaha.

Wander My Friend

Siulaigi a chairde, siulaidh liom
Mar cheo an tsleibhe uaine ag
imeacht go deo
D’ainneoin ar dtuirse leanfam an tsli
Thar chnoic is thar ghleannta
go deireadh na scrib’

Seo libh a chairde is canaidh liom
Lionaigi’n oiche le greann is le sport
Seo slainte na gcarad ata imithe uainn
Mar cheo an tsleibhe uaine,
iad imithe go deo

[Translation]
Wander my friends, wander with me
Like the mist on the green mountain, moving eternally
Despite our weariness, we’ll follow the road
Over hills and valleys, to the end of the journey

Come on my friends and sing with me
Fill the night with joy and sport
Here’s a health to the friends who have gone from us
Like the mist of the green mountain, gone forever

— Lillis Ó Laoire

Composed by Bear McCreary